Meeting Recap

We had our monthly meeting on Saturday, July 18th, at Spiral Diner.  Amethyst, Izzybella, and Chauceriangirl were there in body, and Jehara was with us in spirit and by telephone. And it must here be stated that jehara was sorely missed!!!

Amethyst is looking fantastic. She left her soul-sucking job and returned to teaching. She was on time even!!

Izzybella is doing well also. She decided not to pursue her studies in social work, and has felt a lot better since then.

Chauceriangirl’s job is going very well, now that she’s got a new team lead and is sitting in a bright sunny corner of the building.

Jehara has her goals clearly defined, and they are happening, even if not necessarily on her time frame.

Food: chip & dip party, savoury seitan wrap with potato salad, hot hummus wrap with potato salad, carrot cake, and brownie  mudslide.

Discussion: It was agreed that the monthly meetings will continue, but each of us will work through the book at our own pace. At the meetings we can share our progress and get feedback from the others.  We’ll write more in our blog, and aim to get discussions going through the comments to the blog posts. No specific date was set for the next meeting–Amethyst’s sister is having surgery in August, and Chauceriangirl and Izzybella are going to NYC for a long weekend, date not yet set–but it will be held at Cosmic Cafe.

Amethyst kindly drew Izzy’s and Chauceriangirl’s auras, and the portraits are very lovely and very eye-opening. Her generous sharing of her talents is greatly appreciated.

After we left Spiral, we went to Rave Motion Pictures and watched Harry Potter (Chauceriangirl’s 3rd time; Izzy’s & White Cloud’s (who joined us at the theatre) 2nd time; and Amethyst’s first time). Fun was had by all.

reboot

so, i’ve gotten off track. 

let me clarify.  i have gotten off track of actually working through the chapters.  i think i stopped at chapter 4.  however, i have been manifesting.  i have actually manifested two of my top three goals and am in the process of manifesting the third.  my first goal was travel/adventure.  i wanted to take a cross-country trip and visit friends and relatives, while touring the northeast.  i did.  it was five weeks of fun and adventure.  also, a great way to utilize my time off of work.  another goal was to sell our home by june and move to arizona.  done.  the third was to plan a magnificent party to celebrate our upcoming marriage for $5000 or less.  this has been manifesting itself nicely.  in looking back, i realize that while i may have stopped actively progressing through the book i haven’t stopped achieving.  i feel good about that. 

now it’s time to reassess, re-prioritize and move on to manifesting the next set of goals. 

let’s recap.

as of 2/18/09 my priorities went like this:

1. travel/adventure

2. home

3. special intention

4. health/body

5. relationships

6. spiritual

7. creative expression

8. finances

9. work

10. possessions

as of today, june 28, 2009 my desires in order of priority read like this:

1. work (moved up from #9)

2. home (same place but different meaning)

3. health/body

4. special intention

5. spiritual

6. finances

7. relationships

8. creative expression

9. travel/adventure (moved down from #1)

10. possessions

the next part of the exercise is to expound upon what you want to manifest right now, in this moment of time.  now my goals read like this:

WORK-i want to work for a company whose mission statement jibes with my own values and code of ethics.  i want to work for a company that is fair to all employees, is environmentally friendly in its practices,  in whose products I can stand behind and pays well.  I want to work full-time at one job.  I want to work at a place where I can utilize mass transit to get to or ride my bike.  I want to look forward to going to work each day.  I want to enjoy my work.  I want a schedule that allows me to go to work out regularly, have time to prepare nutritious meals, have plenty of time to spend with b and allows me to wake up with the sun. 

HOME-i want to find a home for us to purchase.  i want to live in downtown phoenix by the light rail or in tempe close to the rail.  i want a 2 bedroom, 1.5 bath.  i want at least 900 square feet.  i want it to be under $80K.  i want to move by the end of the summer.  i want to paint all the rooms a different, vibrant color.  i want a yoga/meditation/temple space.  i want space for a library.  i want to create the aphrodisiac cookbook photo collage to hang in the kitchen.  i want little altars everywhere.  i want our mortgage to still be $400/month. 

HEALTH/BODY-i want to up my fitness level.  i want muscles to be well-defined.  i want to be able to run 2 miles straight without stopping.  i want to increase my flexibility.  i want to do yoga 4x a week, strength-train 2-3x a week, cardio 4-5x a week.  i want to cook more, use recipes from vegetarian times, my cookbooks and spiral.  i want to consume less cheese.  i want to be able to wear my express jeans, my favorite red skirt and my favorite work pants again.  i want to be trim and strong.

SPECIAL INTENTION-i want to plan a magnificent party to celebrate my upcoming marriage with b for $5000 or less.  i want to be handfasted in sedona on a mountain on nov 6, 2009.  i want to hold a masquerade reception on nov 7, 2009. i want it to be an adult only affair.  i want everyone to come dressed in crazy costumes and awesome masks.  i want the evening to flow organically.  i want everyone to have a good time.  i want to spend quality time with all of my guests.

SPIRITUAL-i want to re-establish my meditation practice.  i want to observe the sabbats.  i want to connect to my guides and angels.  i want to practice reiki regularly and develop my gifts.  i want to work all the way through a psychic pathway.  i want to live my soul’s purpose.

FINANCES-i want to pay off UTA and the chiropractor within the next 12 months.  i want to pay off the NFCU loan within the next 24 months.  i want to pay off timberlawn within the next 36 months.  i would like to save up the full amount for my yoga certification within the next 12 months.  i would like us to be able to contribute to roth IRA accounts, one in each of our names.  i would like us to eventually be able to contribute the full yearly maximum.  i want us to build our savings so we can travel at least twice a year, one domestic trip and one abroad.  i would like us to eventually earn a combined income of $100,000/yr.

RELATIONSHIPS-i would like to make new friends in arizona.  i would like to befriend artists, pagans, booklovers and the earth-friendly.  i want to maintain my current friendships by writing lots of letters.  i want to eventually get a kitten.

CREATIVE EXPRESSION-i would like to get involved in theatre again.  i would like to take an art class.  i would like to learn to play the piano.  i would like to learn dance.  i would like to develop my reiki skills.  i would like to create regularly.  i would like to rediscover my passion for writing. 

TRAVEL/ADVENTURE-i would like to make weekend trips to san diego and sedona.  i would like to visit my birthplace in spain.  i would like to discover my heritage in japan.  i would like to travel to many, many places.  some include hawaii, india, france, greece, italy, australia, england, ireland, greenland.  i would like to go skydiving and white-water rafting.  i would like to hike mountains and try parasailing.

POSSESSIONS-i would like to add to my library.  i would eventually like to get a nice book of shadows.  i would like to acquire a giant cauldron that i can build fires in.  i would like to get more art supplies.

so there you have it.  i’m sure some parts are the same and others differ from what i originally wrote back in february. 

and finally:

i, soleil, use the full power of my attention and intention to create the following desires now:

1. i will find a meaningful, full-time job that pays well.

2. i will find a home to purchase by the end of summer that is in our budget and has 2 bedrooms and 1.5 baths.

3. i will create the healthy, muscular body i envision for myself by eating well and myriad forms of exercise.

what are your goals for yourself at this present time?

Arrows, Arrows, Arrows Everwhere!!!!!!!

After our last get together, I went arrow crazy!  I think arrows in combination with Abilify, have helped me alot.  Lately I have been feeling like someone has turned on a light switch in my head.  Faith, thanks for having us create arrows at the last get together.  I am back on track, and am able to actually start to acknowledge what my hearts desires are, and start taking steps to accomplish them.

More arrows

I am accomplishing all the things I’ve dreamed of.

I don’t let things get me down. I just bounce right back up and keep on going!

mantra time

principle 2 invites you to make up a song or mantra for your new beliefs.  i finally wrote mine today.

sunshine mantra

sunshine, sunshine

i am sunshine

full of vibrant energy and grace

i accomplish all that i focus on

in my calm, clear mind-space

with full intention and attention

i manifest all that my heart desires

let’s probe further

heart-to-heart with my subconscious

my heart’s desires-plan an awesome party to celebrate our marriage in november while staying within our budget; sell our home quickly and move to downtown phoenix, arizona; earn an abundant living through yoga, energy healing and theatre.

how will i see myself when i realize my dreams?

a successful, independent, radiant, happy, accomplished woman who knows how to manifest her desires and co-create with the universe.  

how will others see me when i realize my dreams?

as a successful, independent, radiant, happy, accomplished woman.

what possible negativity may i encounter if i realize my dream?

the only negativity i can foresee is negative people who have to rain on my parade and belittle me because i do things differently, live an unconventional lifestyle, am eccentric.  and really, i don’t surround myself with those kinds of people.  the only negativity coming my way at this moment and any future moment is from b’s aunt bev! hahaha.  and i could care less about that.

how will my environment change if i realize my dream?

i will be surrounded by health and healthy-minded people.  i will be surrounded by art and artistic people.   i will be surrounded by inspiration and inspiring people.  

how will my relationships change?

one, i will be married.  as for the rest, i really can’t say.  i think i will still be friends with my friends and have good relationships with everyone i love.  although, my loved ones will be further away if i realize my dreams.

what am i afraid of if i realize my dreams?

i seem to think that if i realize everything i desire, i won’t have enough time.  enough time for what, i don’t exactly know.  i also fear that if i realize all that i want, somehow i will still be a failure and be found a fraud.  i still seem to think somewhere that i am not good enough and despite all that i have created in my life, i can’t create the things that are most important.  that i am a fraud.  a person who can’t do anything important.  and that is where the negativity busting ritual comes in!

what rewards do i hope to experience?

a strong, meaningful relationship with my partner.  a strong, meaningful life filled with love, happiness and abundance. the ability to contribute to the world in a meaningful way, however small.

negative thoughts, positive arrows

i have some catching up to do.  

part of the second principle is to clear out negative beliefs you hold about yourself and replace them with positive ones.  here are the negative beliefs that will be busted and burned:

i am not good enough.  i am not savvy enough.  other people can do that/make that happen/accomplish this, that, and the other but not me.  i am unrealistic.  i can’t do it.  i can’t do it on my own.  i can’t make things happen by myself.  i am not strong enough.  

enough with the enoughs! here are my arrows:

i am worthy

i am savvy

i make things happen

i manifest

i co-create with the universe

i am prosperous

i am talented

i am creative

i succeed in my endeavors

i conquer my fears

Sick of me yet?

I shot an arrow into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For, so swiftly it flew, the sight
Could not follow it in its flight.

I breathed a song into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For who has sight so keen and strong,
That it can follow the flight of song?

Long, long afterward, in an oak
I found the arrow, still unbroke;
And the song, from beginning to end,
I found again in the heart of a friend.

(Longfellow)

I know I’ve posted a lot today. And here’s another post. This one has my arrows of confidence and desires. I just feel like I’m bursting. I wrote 6 pages of the book Izzy and I are co-writing, and it feels right. I think it’s good, and I’m not going to keep going back and re-editing the same 6 pages. Izzy and I will keep going, keep writing, until the book is all put together and ready to go out into the world.

• I am a best-selling author
• My life is full of vivid, brilliant colour
• Hey, beautiful girl!
• I am sexy!
• I am brimming with purpose and confidence
• I am a fantastic housekeeper
• I don’t let others’ negativity get me down
• The book Izzy and I wrote is being made into a movie!
• I am financially responsible and debt-free!
• I am slim, healthy, and physically active
• I travel all over the world and love it!
• I have an incredible, strong, loving marriage
• My creativity is exploding with life
• I’m a good wife, daughter, sister, and friend
• I’m fantastic!
• I love to garden, and my garden is flourishing

So there are my arrows. I’m shooting them into the air and letting myself believe them. What are your arrows?

 

Sing a Song of Faith

One of the Principle 2 task items is to write a silly song or mantra for our new beliefs.

I, Faith, have got an awesome dream, and I know I can achieve it ’cause I let myself believe it. It’s amazing how my future gleams. And I stay really focused every day, and I say

Ain’t nothin’ gonna break my stride, Nobody’s gonna slow me down, oh no, I’m gonna keep on movin. Ain’t nothin’ gonna break my stride, I’m runnin’ and I won’t slow down, oh no, I’m gonna keep on movin

More by Faith

NEGATIVE BELIEF BUSTER RITUAL: First, write down all the negative beliefs that you have that are contrary to your dream:

It can never happen. I’ll always be subpar in the things that are important to me. I can’t possibly find/create a job that will make me happy AND pay a good salary. I will never find my own voice in defiance of those who would think for me.

(This will be re-written and burned. How wonderful!)

Next, a HEART-TO-HEART WITH MY SUBCONSCIOUS

My Heart’s Desire: To be at a healthy weight, enjoying all kinds of physical blessings and activity. To create a living using my creativity and desire to make a difference, that will pay a good salary.

How Will I See Myself when I Realize My Dream? I will see a  confident woman who enjoys her life.

How Will Others See Me When I Realize My Dream? I don’t really care.

What Possible Negativity May I Encounter If I Realize My Dream? Joe. Whenever I try new things, he thinks other people are influencing me. And he thinks I should go after the things he wants, even if they’re not what I want. He does this, I believe, out of fear that if I start becoming truly happy and confident, that I won’t want to be with him anymore.  He’s wrong, and I will show him as I go on this journey.

How Will My Environment Change If I Realize My Dream? I think it will be cleaner, less clutetred. When I let go of my weight, I think I’ll be able to let go of a lot of associated crap, both mental, emotional, and literal.

How Will My Relationships Change If I Realize My Dream? I think they will be stronger in the long run. Joe seems to fear that I settled for him. Maybe when he sees me, confident and successful and happy, he will be able to let go of that fear.

What Am I Afraid of If I Realize My Dream: I’m afraid that I’ll find out that I’m not good enough.

What Rewards Do I Hope to Experience If I Realize My Dream?  Health. Strength. Confidences. New experiences that my insecurities currently keep me away from.